ANTAKALIPA

GANGSTER II I've found that to be successful, you have to be a monster. Integrate your darkside, shatter glass, break the forth wall. A good man is one who knows he is dangerous but controls himself. We often lie about success claiming that if you work hard enough you'll attain everything you ever want. But that's a lie, although not popular, success is given. You are given that corner, move product, make money. If the corner is unoccupied, take it, claim it, it's yours now, protect your territory, move product, make money. You ascend to the top because you know someone and worked out something that is mutually beneficial. You ascend to the top because of compliance and connections. You ascend to the top because you butchered everyone on the bottom and took the top by force. Force, it displaces objects and moves matter. You have to be powerful to be on top. You work hard, you're a good soldier but someone dictates whether you rise up in rank. You can be ...

Scar Sometimes a Mufasa will come out of nowhere to steal your throne, you kill him, they blame you when he was the one that triggered you. I am gonna kill me a king, I am kingslayer. Heroes get set up to take the fall. Making them easy targets, the ones to save the demsel in distress, crocodile tears flooding the ocean, drowning to save a lost course. Sometimes a Mufasa will steal your girl when you already called dibs on her, you betray him, they blame you when he was the one who did it first. You gotta hand out receipts, sometimes the disrespect gets rampant, shaking reality that they don't see who they are next to, a little taste of their medicine levels out the playing field. Sometimes a Mufasa will come out of nowhere to disturb the peace, you start smear campaigns and plot against him, they blame you. When you were next in line. How you gonna let an insignificant creature come out of nowhere to beat you in rank? Convincing everyone of his legibility and taking al...

My Worlds I used to love this album. It had a purity about it, it was innocent, it came from a source that was not tainted by anything, it was all love songs and as a poet, I loved all the poetry about girls and love. I understood and connected with Justin all the way. He was born in 94 and I was born in 95, a big selling point. I remember I had a friend, Nkosana Thusi, who loved his music. He had the "Somebody to love" remix with Usher on his phone as an mp3 when it came out - no one had that, that was the video version, everyone had the original version, the remix was highly sought after. The gents back then weren't open to consuming some Justin Bieber content, everyone was closeted but he had no problem blasting "Baby" featuring Ludacris for all to hear. I would never listen to Justin Bieber out in the open like that! Wouldn't want the girls in school to think I was "soft" and "sensitive". Oh hell no, street cred and reputa...

Happy birthday to you Happy birthday to you. Thank you for voicing out your concerns, feedback from the world always helps. I have to be honest, I am also concerned and worried about you. Despite what you may say, you are not an old man, in fact you are operating at the peak of your powers. One might say "in your prime". You need to get better, you can't carry on living like that. Dignity - empower yourself, you need to start making your own money. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, life goes on, trapped in the same loop since 2009. All my friends have guidance and help to get through life and I have had nothing from you - just birthday texts, nothing that will help me progress in the real world. I am confused. Why are you worried? You never helped. Why do you have a voice? You never gave me any choice. Where's your job? How did it turn out for you? What gives you the right to be critical? Oh, I get it, the annual "Happy birthday to you". Passive a...

Happily single Happily single, unattached without staples, we act like relationships are everything, well I am turning the tables. Fixated on long held beliefs, of people living in the past who couldn't conceive, of the 21st century and what living in this time really means. Who said life is a checklist? Ticking items down like a wishlist. Marriage, kids before 30 is that on your list? Useless if you don't meet the list? Working hard to sustain a myth that won't give you peace. What happens when your imagined life won't give you peace? Divorce, custody, yea it's hard to keep the peace. Happily single, it needs to be about me. Single-minded and selfish but I am trying to get the cream. Providing for Africa is my dream. It's a waste of time starring in somebody else's dream. They be trying to change me to their specifications like my reality ain't what it seems. Happily single, we act like children can't be the spoke on the wheel, sure you ...

STUPIDITY Beware of the stupid person, he will drag you down to hell. Reason is not his guiding factor, he causes harm to others and himself, leaving everybody worse off. Baffling, he even surprises himself. Stupid people are everywhere, social class, success, education and genes have nothing to do with it. You can find a stupid rich person, in fact they are everywhere. Academia is not a refuge either, the world is filled with stupid professors who are lauded by top Universities and have multiple degrees. They still cause harm to others, while gaining nothing themselves, leaving everybody worse off. Stupidity doesn't discriminate. Attractive people also suffer from stupidity. Stupid people are worse in numbers, the most dangerous thing in the world, the greatest threat to humanity. More dangerous than all the armies in the world combined. More dangerous than criminals and bandits. You can predict the action of criminals and bandits, self-interest usually prevails. They ...

Fedka the convict No good scoundrel, criminal, living through other people's labor. Victimizing the community, mugging, stealing, we need to show unity. Bring him to his knees, corner him so he doesn't terrorize the community. Scumiest scum of them all, resides in filth, Fedka the convict. Lurks in the shadows of the night to short change you, clean you out like an empty register. A target if you are walking alone, drunk, or can't register. Will take all your money, clothes and knife you to death, if you can't register. Fedka the convict, a scoundrel, a slave to his impulses. Won't woo a woman, he'd rather take by force to quench his impulses. Men not exempted, will spike his drink to quench his impulses. Scum, low life, irredeemable, rotten to the core, got released and did as before. Fedka the convict, serial stalker, observes in the distance and not a big talker. Then pops up in your face unexpectedly and you thought you were a walker. Not fast en...

antakalipa the philosopher We all try, we all piqued with imperfections. Life is a subjective experience, no one can define it for us. We have to do it for ourselves. There is no blueprint for a successful life and happiness is a fleeting experience. One thing is certain though, life is suffering and consciousness a burden. We born into a world that is in different to us and we all going to die. Boredom is inescapable and persistent and God might turn out to be our greatest lie. We need him to attain a state of sanity because without him, we have nothingness. Life can't be nothingness, it has to mean something. Science attempts to solve the how but can't explain why, because how can consciousness explain itself? It's an impossibility, like biting your own teeth. I think, therefore I am, good try Renee Descartes but what is this "I", how can we be sure of it? Maybe life is a simulation, we are certainly programmed by socioeconomic factors. It's a fa...

Pap & Cabbage I was never chasing money, I was always chasing dreams. My soul yearned for quality stories and content. I have that, I succeeded with flying colors. When money was mixed in the equation, those above me took advantage of me and used it against me. They ruled over me like tyrants because they saw the power they had over me. So I cut the money off so I could be free. Free of tyrants who thought they could dictate my life like God. Free of restrictions and redtape of the uniform. I was rewarded with more stories and content. I fell deeper in love with performance arts. I met amazing people. I never would have achieved this had I clinged on to the little money I was getting. I would have been sluggish, I would have been a slave to my impulses. I would have been trapped, living in a cycle of fear, abiding by false narratives, pleasing people who don't care about me and my dreams. But that's not the case, I am hungry and relentless. I am also "dot.c...

Lower state of development You gotta love me or leave me alone, you gotta love me or leave me alone. I can't believe I have to address this again but my spirit demands this. I understand why we at the bottom, it's because of a lower state of development. It's the inherent hate we have for ourselves, when it's suppressed, it's projected onto other people who look just like us. So we live with this denial oblivious to the fact that it runs our lives. We sabotage each other, we spite each other, we never rise up, we trapped in a loop, the shadow has us, all this lower state of development. You gotta love me or leave me alone, you gotta love me or leave me alone, I am bigger than all this, the passive aggressive energy, the hate, the lower state of development. I don't owe anybody anything, this I extend to everyone, my closest family members and friends included. If you think you have an influence on me because of materials, this will disappoint you. If...

Koketso I met a girl that I used to know today. Her name Koketso. I got acquainted with her in my teenage years. I was operating a shop selling high end candy. I didn't really know her at the time but I was chilling at my shop with a friend and he was busy telling me about her. He was telling me about how she had a perfect body and how she was his girlfriend and how he fucked her. Okay that's good, a friend getting a piece of ass is always good. Especially if it's quality ass and it sounded like it. Naturally, I saluted him and told him that I'd like to see her some time. He responded, don't worry, she's always roaming the streets you'll see her. That was a reassuring answer. I was happy with that answer. As fate would have it, she came by my store to buy candy later that afternoon. He pointed to her whispering  "that's Koketso" . I thought that was suspect behavior. He avoided eye-contact and kept his eyes on his phone the whole ti...

The Gulag Archiepelago  Ever since I experienced my mortality, things have changed for me. While I did use death as intellectual concept to push me in daily endeavors, experiencing it was different. They had my life in their hands, that's powerful. I hear about people being robbed and killed every time in Gomora, I am bombarded by police vans and forensic teams on a constant. I know that evil lurks in the shadow of every human being. I know evil exists. My mind keeps on playing the interaction like "what if". What if I had too many drinks and I couldn't regulate my emotions? What if I wasn't attuned to their mannerisms and intercepted their thought process? What if they just yearned for blood? What if they had shot me and took all my belongings while I was on the ground bleeding to death? What about my loved ones and my family? What about my prospects and dreams? What happens in an alternate dimension? I've got no one to blame but myself. What woul...

Me & Kay: Greatest coaches in the world.  We had three official games against Norkem High in our first season and we lost all three. The first game was a Friendly and it's understandable because we were starting out and didn't know the boys all that well. We had more than 50 boys who wanted to be in the team so it was difficult for me and Kay. To be fair though we had the game under control, we were better than Norkem in terms of game play and individual players, we just didn't have a good goalkeeper. Our goalkeeper (Sakhe) drank us that day. On the touchline, Kay was telling me about some kid who was a goalkeeper who came to training the previous week who was a great goalkeeper. We both agreed that we needed to convince him to come back asap. But that was a plan for tomorrow, right now we were trailing Norkem. We managed to come back and made the game 4-4, but in the last moment of the game Sakhe conceded a stupid goal. Final score 5-4, but we consoled the ...

The man I have been winning so much,  I am beginning to lose sense of reality.  Everyday is a blur,  making money comes as easy as breathing.  I remember when I used to have dreams of owning it all  now it's just memories relegated into the deep abyss of time.  I am the embodiment of all my dreams.  I did it,  I am the man. 

Messi winning Copa America Argentina winning Copa America is literally the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t want to live in a world where Messi doesn’t have a domestic title. That world is not fair, it doesn’t make sense. Lionel Messi is the greatest soccer player there ever lived and he has done everything he can to win. When he contemplated about quitting the national team in 2016, I felt his pain. He led them to the finals only to fail at the final hurdle. It wasn’t even his fault, he can’t assist and finish the move himself, that’s not possible. The final product was often bitterly disappointing. Higuain didn’t do justice to Messi and Aguero is an after thought at national level. The only player who attempted to match Messi’s level was Angel Di Maria, his performances were always good but never enough for the illusive trophy. Losing 4 finals and 3 back-to-back is heartbreaking, especially if you’re Messi because he was named the MVP for 3 out of thos...

Long hair again (full circle).  I've got long hair again, you know, a symbol of artistic expression. Look man, I've always been an artist and I have used dreadlocks as an avenue to express that outlet before. When I was in high school, junior years, I started making the investment, I liked them loose but I had to conform to the schools rules, you know, God governments hand reaches everywhere, you have no other option but to conform. I made it difficult for them, I used to plait wild hairstyles, teachers would ask me "Why don't you plait the normal way?" I would laugh and shrug it off. I would get called to the Principal's office often and most times I won. I had creative stories. It was my encounter with authority and the Principal was a great guy, who just wanted you to conform. I mean you are representing the school, like be professional man. I remember one time, things were heated, I knew they would want to assert their authority, so I intercept...

These girls These girls, they are everywhere! They all want me. I have become a mere possession, a collectors item. Something devoid of feelings and to hang around proudly, boastfully, like I were a Da Vinci classic. Everyday I am propositioned. Everywhere it’s the same, “we love you”, “Marry me”, “We can’t live without you”! The numbers are overwhelmingly against me because I am the one like Jet Li. My competitors can’t fill the gap. Sometimes I get tired of being the best but what can I do? Greatness defines me and women can smell the aroma. They love me, what can I do? Truth be told they are a reflection of me, sometimes it will get creepy and they’ll stalk me but big deal. It’s fine, a little crazy never hurt anyone. Sometimes I put on disguises, I conceil myself like a mask but the whole situation is a fail because I want it like an addict. They validate everything I am, an unstoppable force! Sexual energy is just a lagging instrument like a moving average, a byproduct...

Keep going When you finally make it,  Guilt trips are going to be common,  Like,  "Now that he's got money, he's changed".  Fuck that!  Like that's a bad thing.  You mean you worked so hard to stay the same? They want you to stop,  But why would you stop?  Haters,  Nevermind them they are quitters.  Besides,  Blame it on God.  Let them talk,  that's all they have got,  they can't get to you.  Keep your eyes on the prize.  Keep on dominating.  Maintain the hunger.  Maintain the stamina.  Double the profits.  Create new sources of income.  Serve more people.  Live.  Love.  Dream.  Create.  Greater things are ahead,  Keep going. 

Coitus everyday All she wants is coitus every day. I can’t do it no more. I am not a machine. I have a job, she’s irrational. I can’t be representing all fronts like I am national. The house looks like the aftermath of a tornado, dishes stacked up like a skyscraper. While I am out getting paper, she’s passive like a hater. Lazy as fuck, no pun intended. She’s the type of woman who makes a sloth offended. The sparkle in my eyes gone and my enthusiasm suspended. Just yesterday, she made me a victim of the headboard. Bang, Bang! Dominating me like Serena on the court. Do this, do that, like I am a kid of some sort. She doesn’t even cook and she’s attached to my dick like a hook. She don’t even wear panties anymore. Always exposed like invaluable ore. If her pussy were a stock, it would have plummeted. News just in; Miss Dow Jones loses 90% of her value sending the market into shambles. A gamble, if I am in the house and fully-able. All she wants is coitus every day. I can’t do ...

Haters III: New and better haters I need new haters, the ones I have now love me. WTF?! That is not in the contract but I didn’t check the fine print. What am I going to do? I can’t cope without my haters. I need haters, they are my reflection of the world and they help gauge my perceived greatness. They are usually the first people to see my flaws, they help me get better. I am honestly worried. Am I falling off? Don’t I make them insecure anymore? Aren’t they intimidated anymore? What happened to the passive aggressive behavior and narcissistic tendencies? What happened to the smear campaigns? What happened to the constant plotting of my downfall? Whose going to dissuade me from going after my dreams? Whose going to spread rumors and assassinate my character? Is this what it feels like to be on top? I can’t live like this. I need to expose myself to new people and broader horizons, that will help me get more haters. I have been too complacent. My current haters are too we...