Happy birthday to you

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Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you. Thank you for voicing out your concerns, feedback from the world always helps. I have to be honest, I am also concerned and worried about you. Despite what you may say, you are not an old man, in fact you are operating at the peak of your powers. One might say "in your prime". You need to get better, you can't carry on living like that. Dignity - empower yourself, you need to start making your own money. Stop feeling sorry for yourself, life goes on, trapped in the same loop since 2009. All my friends have guidance and help to get through life and I have had nothing from you - just birthday texts, nothing that will help me progress in the real world. I am confused. Why are you worried? You never helped. Why do you have a voice? You never gave me any choice. Where's your job? How did it turn out for you? What gives you the right to be critical? Oh, I get it, the annual "Happy birthday to you". Passive aggressive tendencies, deeply concerned and worried and yet sitting on the sidelines, definition of theatrics, crocodile tears. Happy birthday to you, Imposing your viewpoint on me, using hypotheticals to get at me, comparing me to people to get under my skin. Happy birthday to you, it's not enough, send something tangible, give me power, give me money, enable me with your metric of success to garner more of it. Tight fisted but you want to get it from me. I have had to start from scratch on all fronts because I've had no support. I am also worried, you have been stuck on the same level for years. I haven't been able to rely on you for years. The thing about pointing fingers is that you have three pointing back. Happy birthday to you, thank you for initiating dialogue, I also have a couple of things to get off my chest. I hope we will be able to talk about these things more freely and openly. High expectations with no input, claim you want to help but won't empower or meet me halfway. "Happy birthday to you" never bought any house. I have been lenient, too understanding, an enabler, made you feel like Superman when you struggling to just be man. Happy birthday to you, you have the gift that keeps on giving - the great man antakalipa, just press play. Made me the target because I've been silent, well congratulations, the target is out of it's hole with a bang! Take your shot! The advice was to be humble but pride took over and now I have to reflect it back. Happy birthday to you, here are the receipts to go with it. Concerned, worried, definition of theatrics, crocodile tears. Worried but you never call, concerned yet you always drop the ball. Cognitive dissonance, saying one thing and doing another. Thank you for voicing out your concerns, I'll do the same. I'll live my life the way I see fit. Never asked for your advice, it's counterfeit. "Happy birthday to you" once a year and you think you are fit. 

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