Haters III :New and better haters

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Haters III: New and better haters

I need new haters, the ones I have now love me. WTF?! That is not in the contract but I didn’t check the fine print. What am I going to do? I can’t cope without my haters. I need haters, they are my reflection of the world and they help gauge my perceived greatness. They are usually the first people to see my flaws, they help me get better. I am honestly worried. Am I falling off? Don’t I make them insecure anymore? Aren’t they intimidated anymore? What happened to the passive aggressive behavior and narcissistic tendencies? What happened to the smear campaigns? What happened to the constant plotting of my downfall? Whose going to dissuade me from going after my dreams? Whose going to spread rumors and assassinate my character? Is this what it feels like to be on top? I can’t live like this. I need to expose myself to new people and broader horizons, that will help me get more haters. I have been too complacent. My current haters are too weak. Maybe time has diluted their spirit. Maybe they just can’t keep up anymore. Regardless, I am not impressed. I need haters of a better quality. Haters that will keep me awake at night. My current haters are bitterly disappointing, I’ve got nothing to write home about. They now praise and compliment me and it’s not even sly, it’s overt and sincere. I hear from the grapevine that I inspire them, that they admire me. They love me. What am I going to do with haters who love me? Mxm, what a shame. Maybe they loved me from the start. I don’t know what to believe anymore. How am I going to get better without proper haters? I am not doing enough and hence the quality and quantity of my haters. The Universe is sending me a message, I am not working hard enough. I am comfortable.

I need new haters, the ones I have now love me. WTF?! Truthfully speaking, I am disappointed.

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