ANTAKALIPA

Countess Olenska We grow up. Time lapses. We wrinkle. We lose our youth. We lose our wit. The neon lights lose their intensity. We assume old age. We get trapped in old memories. We replay our regrets. We forget to love. We are forgotten. Seasons change. The stars change their locations. Life goes on. We plant seeds. Those seeds metastasize and create offsprings. We are retired. No one cares about us anymore. The beauty vanishes. The enthusiasm wanes. The smiles turn to frowns. The bones stultify. We are wrapped in a loop. Boredom cripples our souls. Distance prevails. Nothing matters anymore. We are rueful, so many could haves, so many should haves, unfortunately, it wasn't meant to be. We become wiser. We learn patience. We become compassionate. We become kind. We practice love and preach it like a Gospel. We learn to be humble and appreciate the magnificence of life. I used to love you but what I loved is dead buried in the past. You were a moment of weakness, my rep...

Female nature I know female nature, I put it all under microscopic view. I refrained from judgment, I just observed. I studied all the women in my life, from the root canal to the most distance branch in the family tree. I studied Jane Austin, I thoroughly watched the Romance genre. I watched Cinderella, she's a unicorn; she's wonderful, kind, caring, loving and compassionate - the dream of femininity. True female nature is exampified by her sinister step-mother Madame Tremaine and her two daughters, Drizella and Anastasia. I consumed the works of Adele, Beyonce, Alicia Keys, Sade and plenty of other love songs. I know female nature, I know how they think and go about things. I know what's hidden in the deep recesses of their subconscious. I know all their techniques and how they make you yield. I know indirection is the gameplan. The ability to stay aloof but insight suggestions and paint pictures with fabricated personas that mean absolutely nothing. I know yo...

Will Simp It's not my responsibility to make you happy, you must do that for yourself and I'll do that for me, we don't want a Will Smith moment. How dare he slap Chris Rock, invertebrate like a jellyfish, the biggest simp of all time! I ain't trying to please you and live up to your expectations, shit I am living my life too. If you constructing triangles to make me jealous, I'll make it easy for you, I don't want you anymore, go to him, she's all yours August. If my girl is easy prey, you can take her. No second chances after entanglements, no round tables, no mind games and no working to please you. It's not my responsibility to gage your feelings and emotions, manage them yourself. Don't make your problems mine, I am also going through stuff. This is my night not yours and the Academy is finally going to be honoring me for my hard work. Forget it, I am not going to transform like Optimus Prime because you gave me a look. "Keep my...

Underground Railroad The Underground Railroad series by Barry Jenkins is a masterpiece. It is uncomfortable, disturbing, difficult and painful. The depiction of slavery is earth shattering! Its so raw, exposed and unapologetic. The imagery evokes the feeling of dread and fear. The oppression is heavy as a 10 ton truck and the situation is just hopeless - it is what it is. Slavery is the most horrific event that has ever occurred in our history. It's so barbaric and lacks any conscience. Our ancestors had it bad. It was brutal. From the whips that devour your bloody mince meat back. To the fires that consume the body turning it to a coal. The total disregard for human life is heartbreaking. How are you better than me as a human being because your hue is diluted? Why are you offended by my melanin tone? Why do you have to humiliate me and disregard my right to life? Why is your God prejudice and so selective? We see characters lose hope - it's difficult not to lose ho...

Everyone thinks they're right Everyone thinks they're right and in the process we lose our humanity and further surpress our mortality. We forget to love one another and act justly. Even Adolf Hitler thought he was right and he thought that he was going to live forever. He justified the atrocities that transpired in the 20th century to God. He vilified the Jews so much and propagated hate that everything he said made sense. He got supporters. The world fell under his hypnotic frame and genocide became accepted. It's the same thing with white supremist groups like the KKK and slavery, everyone thinks they're right and it also makes sense too. In elevating our status we demean the statuses of others and come to see them as weak, we believe we are superior, better, chosen and that we are going to live forever. The hate becomes our refuge and it protects us from the injustices of the world namely that life is suffering and there is no apparent reason for this su...

The narcissist II: mine I ran into an old friend I used to attend school with. He was good, in great spirits, looked healthy but he wasn't happy with how I looked. He said, "You are so thin, is that you? You are finished." I replied "Yea, it is me." I replied to his sentiment disregarding the content obviously happy to see him. We engaged in a bit of small talk until he came back to his main point "You are so thin, you are finished my brother", we exchanged pleasantries and drifted off in different directions but his comments stayed with me. It was as if he were looking down on me, it was pity, a side of schadenfreude, he was in disbelief, I felt like a disgraced fallen soildier. A couple of days before, a friend told me I had lost weight and I agreed to his observations but I didn't think it was that bad. You mean I put on weight just to lose it again? Plausible, I was stressed and neglecting my eating schedule. Did you hear the whispe...

The narcissist Mr. Center of attention, loud and space consumer, grounding other people’s participation like detention. Miss “its not my fault you’re so sensitive”. Like “I’m sorry, if you’re offended”. Keep your half baked apologies that are conditional like the weather. You ain’t never gonna change. You think you’re the axis and the world revolves around you. Mr. Monotonising the focus, expert manipulator stringing peoples emotions like Geppetto. You’re not the only real boy in this tale. Miss tantrums and ego trips, oblivious to how you make others feel. Flossing and bragging like you’re on MTV cribs. Mr. starting fights in the clubs and bruising ribs, spoiling the fun for everyone like a canceled trip. Mr ultrasensitive, Mr. know it all, volitile temper, everyone is always wrong and you’re the victim. The victim of circumstance, victim of ill treatment, victim of past experiences, victim of life, everyone hates you and you never asked for all of this – please, no one ca...

Meditations  Of course life is difficult, it says so in the Bible, it is the fundamental premise of Philosophy and science surmises it as entropy, destruction, chaos! Regardless, you can never give up on yourself. You can't let people's voices drown who you are. The truth about reality is that the world will assign you a role and compartmentalize you if you don't do that for yourself. If you don't know who you are, the world will tell you who you are. It will label you and dilute your essence until you are a carbon copy of everybody else. It is your duty to decide your fate. Never worry about things you can't control. And human beings? Mxm, don't try to change them, these are not linear creatures, they will turn on you if it serves their interests. Why are you worried about what another person thinks about you? Why do you let another person make you emotional? If you don't acknowledge it, it doesn't exist, no hard feelings, let them talk, it ...

Musical Chairs  I've been struggling with my own significance for the whole day. 11:11 when I checked my phone, angel numbers, everything is in perfect alignment. I know the ego is a fabrication of the mind. A dirty trick that makes me believe I matter. How many people would miss me if everything turned to black? Who will remember me? What legacy did I leave behind? Nothing, I don't exist. 4:44 time to prepare for the theatre, Musical Chairs is on. I get to Sandton, almost On the square, the Gautrain station in sight, then out of nowhere, with a lot of speed, from a corner, a car approaches me, I duck but it connects and hits my left leg, shook but I regain my balance, it's not bad and I don't fall but it hurts. I look in the distance thinking it's a hit and run but the driver reverses. White guy, white Hyandai, in a hurry, he wasn't paying attention. I am relieved, at least he has some humanity. It's awkward for him, he doesn't know what to ...

Insignificant I know I am insignificant, scum, a cockroach, unworthy, tainted, contaminated and rotten to the core. I am a virus that spreads like a cancerous cell to devour the very essence of your existence. I live to consume and leave nothing of substance.  I am a plague that wipes out life. I add nothing, I contribute suffering, I am nothing. I am a bad man, I would decapitate your head from your shoulders if I had the chance, for the fun of it, just because I would, because I was bored, because of the power I have over you. I find it difficult to condemn slavery because I have inhibitions to own and control you. If you were my slave, I'd have my way with you, I'd humiliate you, work you, break you, rape you, cut off your tougue to silence you and when I am done with you, just throw you in the nigger box. How's God going to save you when he's on my side? I am coming for the kikes and the kaffers too. If my bloodline was Aryan, I'd be your chief torme...

Liquor & Poor Judgment I could get my way with liquor and poor judgment, sure she's hot and my chances with her are slim but what if I disguised the date as an undertaking of two colleagues getting together after work for another project, a side hustle, an opportunity to generate something, make it worthwhile for her, concoct something that will pique her interest. What exactly? I am not sure, I am not exactly a ladies man and their interests are foreign to me. I hypothesize a free meal will interest her, it's biological, we all get hungry. Maybe I play the long game, buy her lunch on occasion, make her comfortable around me and associate food with me. A little operant conditioning never hurt anybody and I wouldn't have to sustain it, it's only until I get my way. You know what they say, food is the way to a girls heart. Or is it vice versa? Well, who cares? If I move just right I can get her to dinner. I am a decent guy, then maybe we talking and exchan...

Toxic love  I love you because you make me suffer. What would I do without your bruises that color me black and blue like police sirens illuminating the troubled corners of my life that keep me grounded and lacking an escape. Your toxic fumes are like lilac perfume, intoxicating mesmerizing and disguised in a costume. Your love is like a fire that consumes, decomposing my troubled past like corpses that have never been exhumed. I love the penicillin apologies that make the pain go away, numb like anesthesia it  gives me a blackout and I forget everything and return to your warm embrace. You are the route to my soul, the navigation that leads to all, a single glance in winter and I can never forget your face. Cold and distant your demeanor, loud and bashful, you defeat her. I love you because you make me suffer. Your love to my heart is like burning Sulphur, excruciating and burdensome but worthwhile and satisfying because it makes me feel. I can't live without you,...

On top for as long as I like  I am the greatest of all time. The top of the mountain is mine until I decide I want to descend.  You'll get the glory when I am done. Everything you see here is mine,  everything revolves around me.  I am the pulse, I am the whole business.  Acknowledge Me,  I am not going anywhere!  I am on God mode,  no one is on my level.  Everyone is an afterthought in my presence.  I smash my competition so bad they become irrelevant in their future endeavors.  I dare anyone to step-up and take these titles from me.  No one can,  it can't be done.  I have beaten them all,  there is no one left.  Acknowledge Me now,  I am not going anywhere,  I will remain on top for as long as I want. 

Be weird Be weird, do strange things, follow your heart, never let anybody surpress who you are. We all have that inner voice, that inner guide, channeling us to who we truly are. This voice manifests itself in these eccentricities that make us stand out like a nail that needs to be hammered in. The world hates anything that stands out, something that's different, that's why we are indoctrinated into a system that teaches us to think the same, to be the same. The conditioning is so deep its starts from when we children at school. We wear uniforms that make us look like everybody else, we follow these social constructs that enable mobilization and control, we shame anything that is different, we follow the curriculum, we weed out individuality and we reward complicity and fabricated standards that cater to the majority. It continues up until adulthood and in the process we lose who we are. We become one dimensional. We are trapped in a loop, we do the same things ove...

The Assembly Improv show Improv - make something up, think on the spot, go with the flow, zen, Bruce Lee, be like water, be formless, quick witted, puns, irony, sacarsm and it has to be humorous! Let's break the fourth wall, you there, yes you reading this, listening to this, yes hi, happy new year, acknowledge me, make things easier for yourself, I am not going anywhere. On the square for the Assembly Improv show, filled to the brim, full house. Was with SamSays, it was a great show, unpredictable, spontaneous, quick witted and so funny. We couldn't stop laughing, we were entertained from the first minute to the last. What I found to be most effective in Improv, is calm. You have to let things process, be in the moment, respond not react. Reactions are filled with anxious energy and that's not humorous because you bulldoze the act and spoil the tone of the scene. Relax, let other performers have the spotlight. You don't have to be in every scenario. Listen ...

Winning It's the same process,  winning is a state of being!  We never stop,  we keep going,  we keep pushing,  we keep delivering.  It's the same thing everyday,  it's effortless.  I am the greatest of all time.  No excuses,  if you need me,  you'll find me at the top of the mountain.  I am on God mode,  Acknowledge Me!  I am only going to get better and better, Winning is what I do best.

Why you need to be more masculine. A masculine frame is needed to accomplish your goals and attain success. This is because a masculine frame is active and progressive. It seeks to create order in a world that is overwhelmed by chaos. To be more masculine is to live the life of the hero, to take charge and take life by the horns. Imagine if James Bond were dull, larthagic and insipid. What makes James Bond so successful with the ladies and career is control and self-regulation. Here are 5 reasons you need to be more masculine. 1. It enables you to be a person of value - Because you are always working on your purpose, you encounter phenomena that strengthens your character, values and conduct. Going up against the world everyday, you improve and learn something new about yourself. You gain confidence in your abilities and skills and that leads to success socially and professionally. 2. Emotional Intelligence - Having a masculine frame means you are in control of yourself and...

5 signs of a friend  1. A true friend is someone who is emphatic and assists at times of distress. Navigating the world can be stressful and we all need a crutch to help us. The pressures of life can be unbearable at times and having a sympathic ear helps. Someone who loves us and cares about us and our well-being. Someone to run to when we need advice, a shoulder to cry on who will not judge but listen attentively to what we have to say and also advice us on our shortcomings. If you have that in your resevior then good news, you have a good friend! 2. A true friend is someone who has a growth mentality. A true friend is someone who wants the best for you. Someone who wants you to win! It is not someone who wants to see you regress to the mean. A true friend wants you to soar high above the sky with eagles and the stars. A true friend understands that if you do well, then all of humanity benefits. A true friend can even be your coach, showing you the best technique for ...

Superman  Navigating the world can be challenging as we are always bombarded by messages informing us on who we should be. We are indoctrinated into other people's viewpoints, we are influenced by advertising, we are told what is acceptable by the culture, we are expendable like pawns in a chess game. It's easy to fall into the trap of victimhood because modern life is so fast paced and everything is always in motion, sometimes it's like life is happening to you. It's easy to get nihilistic and feel yourself as a spectator and not a collaborator. The movie Fight Club released in 1999 was ahead of its time in portraying the masculinity crisis in the 21st century. Being swept up by novelty and consumerism we lose the anchor that keeps us grounded in reality. We let things outside of ourselves defines us. Negativity plagues our lives. We lose the ability to make decisions for ourselves, we become victims, we become weak, we lose our masculine frames. 20th centu...

Dangers of social media  The advent of social media has made life better in a lot of ways. We now have telepathic powers that stretch to different continents, we can share our lives with our loved ones via video and photos, we can connect and work remotely from anywhere in the world, we have powers our ancestors could only dream about, we have become God's. But nothing exists without its negative, social media is also the reason depression in the west and everywhere else in the world is so rife. The incessant comparing of our lives has crippled our souls resulting in a lack of knowledge of ourselves. Social media has created a generation of simps, weak men whose purpose in the world is please women. To cater to their every whim and neglect themselves in the process. These men have no inner campus and get validation from the attention they receive from these women. Sites like OnlyFans perpetuate this simp culture as men are lured in with the promise of viewing explicit c...

Modesty aside Modesty aside, I am the greatest of all time. Killing everything on site like a crime. Quieting haters with my skills like a mime. Dominating the poetry game with a rhyme. Cause I grind, sparks in air cause I fly, high like a satellite, observing you peasants like NASA, invading and spreading in your system like a cancer, the energy you be emitting be denser, I am the sun that lights up your universe, I here to bless ya. Modesty aside, there has never been somebody as good me, a genius with words and a stinger like a bee. Causing wounds that linger as if deep like the sea. My baseline is steep, two jumps in the air like Kratos and you still wouldn't get the brief. There's only one God of War and that's me. Modesty aside, no one is on my level. Operating on different perspectives like a bevel. I am above like heaven stomping down on the devil. You wouldn't be on my level even if you had tilts, blind to your endeavors cause I have tints, big and ...

Heel turn I am everything you say I am. Yes, I am narcissistic, egotistic, out of sync, grandiose, envious and irrational. I am a worldwide phenomena and not just national. Now that class is in session, I'll make this educational. Don't be emotional, I'll hand out gold stars for pointing out the obvious. Like you left her unattended, what did you expect, she's leaving with us. Godlike style, best vibe, best charisma and a sparkling section, take it easy, relax, she's coming with us. Ever since that heel turn, the earth be plowing. Fresh produce delivered on a daily, with energy renewable, its all wind. Blowing away my competition like Team Rocket blasting out of space, my thunderbolts is Ashy and will shock you to win the race cause my Pikachu ain't yellow, a couple of volts will solve the the case. Ever since the heel turn, you pay me, acknowledge me or get out off my face. The dough be raising so it's time to eat cake. If you think you can come...

Long-term  The plan has always been long-term. You can have that bitch, she's all yours and expedient, no long-term prospects like a deviant. I never minded missing a couple of parties, I was lenient, I don't wanna be cool, I just am and you can believe that. I am the guy who goes on social media to diss social media. Cause what you gonna do? A lot of yall are like insurance brokers, you claim too much. We see the unhappiness in your eyes in all your pictures. Masquerading in falsehoods thinking it will affect your futures. Handling this post solo, I don't need features. Your self-importance is a fairy-tale no one believes. No one really cares, it might be hard to conceive. You can take your fluke win, my insistence is on the league cause consistence is the key. I only play for the long haul and not just the long ball. I play to win forever and that's just my call. The plan has always been long-term. I never lost sleep over what glimmers because I've alw...

The one I am the one, fucking bitches, decimating pussy like a vaginal disease. I aim to please, going up against me will leave you exposed like a midget with no knees. You coming up short and you will never reach. My verse just blessed you and you didn't have to sneeze. Flow fresh like Spring and the punchlines a breeze. Swag cold like heat and sure to make you freeze. You all talk like a girl on Tinder whose just a tease. Kicking down the door cause I don't need the keys. Puffing out smoke cause I got the weed. Implanting words in your mind like a seed, to make you strong and grounded like a tree. My style buzzing like a bee, while you lactose intolerant and you never get the cream. I am living out my dream, making money, fucking honeys on a stream. One mention of me and niggas scream, cause I bring the horror like you wouldn't believe. I am the one while niggas phony as a weave. Unavailable to all my haters like a leave. A crown on my head like a king, high n...

DAHMER  Monsters lurk everywhere in the world and it’s hard to spot them. They have learned to camouflage themselves in the darkness, it engulfs and consumes them, blackening their souls turning them into shadows. Analytical Psychologist Carl Jung explains that human beings carry within themselves both elements of the good and bad, that we are both angels and demons, sick, demented, evil, dark, spoiled. Because we live in a world where we have to co-exist to survive, we surpress these undesirable qualities relegating them into the shadows. Unchecked the shadow can grow to consume our personality and rule our subconscious minds enabling us to act unconsciously. Our shadows can turn us into psychopaths who lack empathy and thrive on destruction. The shadow can enable the individual to be narcissistic, egotistical and maniacal. Shedding a light on our dark sides helps in controlling the shadow. Acknowledging you have a dark side keeps the shadow at bay. Life is a balance o...

Pussy whipped He's pussy whipped, the claws of her vagina reeled him in like a fisherman and now he's dangling on a string gasping for air, castrated and flat lacking a pair. He's pussy whipped, a woman pleaser, always on her side but never gets to please her. Yet the woman is a rental and every man gets to lease her. He's pussy whipped, on his knees begging for the cookie. Buying the whole shop but he ain't never sample the pussy. She be controlling him like Lucy, using all her mental capacity to keep him in the deep sea, like we look good in this picture boo, see. He's pussy whipped, respect and dignity evaporated like steam. She's his biggest achievement, he's retired, he never gets the cream. It's a nightmare, it's hard not to scream. Gave up his life and forgot about his dreams. He's pussy whipped, worse is that she don't respect him. Pitched me her pussy to make him the fool. Tore that shit apart cause I am so cool. Lick...

The Ultimatum When everyone knows you're a writer, the stories come to you. On the weekend, I decided to see a couple of friends I hadn't seen in a while. A friend was hosting an event and he invited me. I was excited and the event was a success. It was youthful, vibey and very summer. All I could see was girls in shorts and mini skirts. The place was illuminated by yellow thighs and you needed shades to let in the proper light in your retinas. The speakers were blasting Piano, of course and you could hear that lock drum and bass beating to the soul of the universe. There was happiness and it was contagious radiating throughout the room and manifesting itself on the dance floor. Tables were filled with bottles and hookahs connected to pipes emitting smoke that bubbled like a chimney from lungs that breathed out vitality and Joy. Oh, it was great. I drank alcohol and I smoked weed, I was hunk. A friend got into an altercation and the whole situation nearly spiraled o...

Cheaters Women cheat, men cheat, its human nature no one is perfect. Men cheat a lot but women are better cheaters. Women play the game better, they think long-term. Men just want to fuck. It's not even a contest, your lady can break you down. She can cause permanent damage to your psyche, she can flip the switch to end your life. You don't want to know who's dick she's sucked. And when she cheats, you won't know a thing. Bet money now, you'll get the biggest shock of your life! This is because female nature is more cunning in nature. It's more chaotic and creative. The masculine brain is more leftist and derives it meaning from reason and rationality. The masculine brain wants to instill order while the feminine brain just doesn't give a fuck, it wants to see everything burn! Nothing and no one is out of bound. Its difficult to catch your lady in the act of cheating because usually everything is so premeditated, so precise, there is so much ...

Gold diggers A man who has money is beauty for women just like how men look for beauty in women. Granted you wouldn't marry a woman for her beauty but it sure helps. Money is attractive, money is intoxicating, it has the promise of fulfilling all your dreams. Visions of not having to struggle anymore, gracing balls wearing designer clothes burdened with sparkling diamonds that hang on your neck and wrists, driven in luxury and escorted by royalty. Which girl wouldn't want to be Cinderella for a lifetime? This time the magic doesn't dissipate, the clock keeps ticking, the fairy godmother on speed dial and the glass shoes keep on multiplying. Living in Mansions, walking on marble, oversighted by crystal chandeliers, swimming in heated pools and served by foreign butlers. There enters the Gold digger, the manifestation of every man's fantasy. She represents a tunnel in the repressed subconscious mind. She fulfills you in every way you desire. She subjegates her...