GANGSTER III: The call of the void

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GANGSTER III: The call of the void

So intrusive, the call of the void. I am thinking crime, conditioned to think that's the only way somebody like me can get ahead. I watched too much TV to know it never works out. You can never break bad even if you are Gustavo Fring because a master manipulator like Heisenberg is in the background, pulling strings detonating bombs! Even if you avoid explosions and ignite them verbally like Saul Goodman they ultimately result in life imprisonment because you are sneaky, dishonest, a co-conspirator, a shape-shifter, silver tongue devil, a scumbag criminal lawyer!

The call of the void, so intrusive, destructive. I am thinking crime but I have watched enough Scorsese to know it never works out, even if you're Henry Hill who aspired to be a gangster all his life. Cadillac's and double-breasted suits and you are never secured. Living a life of paranoia, death can come from anywhere, a volitile existence, your murderers come with a smile. Once Goodfellas and now you gotta rat on your friends, it's bye-bye if you don't - you're gonna get whacked!

The call of the void, so intrusive but it never works out even if you are Anthony Soprano. Rose from a soldier to a Capo, to the boss! Living the dream life in a mansion with a pool with your childhood sweetheart Carmella and married with two wonderful children. The crown is heavy, it's difficult to be number 1, you are a constant moving target, other gangsters want your crown, plagued by constant nightmares, you are a mess psychologically, trust issues and once in a while you have to shed blood to maintain the peace or you will get toppled. No room for weakness. You still die in front of your family in the end and the screen turns to black before the end of your favorite song.

The call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime but that never works out even if you avoid the wire and still run the streets with your shotgun like Omar Little, the legendary cocksucker. Mr. Rob drug dealers, it's all in the game. The tune of his whistle and everyone in the streets scatters like flees. Induces fear and is respected by the most hardened criminals. Rock solid reputation. Still got taken out by a kid, a nobody because he doesn't fear him nor his reputation - the new ushers out the old.

The call of the void, maybe Marlow, took out Proposition Joe and won his battle with the Barksdales but lost his muscle to jail. When he came out, the world had moved on, the streets didn't know who he was. Despite his ruthless disposition and taking out all his competition, he didn't leave a lasting legacy, couldn't build a self-sustaining reputation - he became another player in the game who was at the helm for a while but fell off.

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime like the Godfather but I could never be like Vito Corleone. A reasonable man, practical, patient, fair but ruthless. A master of human nature, a strategist who plans a 100 moves ahead, an immortal who survived five shots. He knew "the black hand" was phony, he settled for less money, he is not a real mafia, he threatened Vito with the police, where's the code of Omerta? He is taking chances. Vito played the fool to catch him off guard and took him out to begin his ascent to the top. Vito Andolini Corleone, suffered the death of his father, mother and eldest brother to the mafia, the Don. Escaped to America, made a life for himself, rose up in rank, avenged the death of his family by later killing the Don and became the boss of all bosses of the criminal underworld. He died an old man playing with his grandson in his tomato garden but also lost his eldest son in a hail of bullets.

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime but that never works out even if you are Tony Montana and think the world is yours. The cocaine gets to your head and you think you are invincible! You kill your best friend Manolo and a rival, Sosa sends assassins and kills your sister Gina. On top of the world because of the cocaine but you die in a hail of bullets in the fountain pool of your mansion - Sosa did tell you not to cross him!

Call of the void, so intrusive, I am thinking crime. I need money, I need to start a family, time is in a hurry and I am not getting any younger. 

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