Starry Nights

Starry Nights 

My thoughts are just all over. What I am thinking about are Starlights and the Domino effect. Starlights because they shine in a sky dominated by pure darkness. They look so happy about in the sky, you can literally sense their energy. They are like the spirit of a new born baby beaming and flaring like an inferno. Maybe that's why we can't really screen out fire, we just look at it, you can't help it, you can't ignore it, it just grabs your attention primarily because I think it consumes a lot of energy. Stars are just boundless energy, they have this synergy about them that is almost coordinated like a dance. They look so assured, so perfect. I love them. I am drawn to them simply because they are full of impossibility; I mean don't you dream impossible things? And the Domino effect because what do you do when your life falls apart? I ask people what is life to them and they get frustrated because they can't really answer me? And its a difficult question because its all too subjective. Philosophy and Science have their theories, exceptional theories but sometimes I think George Orwell's "Doublespeak" rules because we base those theories with the brain and I think its too limited. I mean just look at the stars. 

I am a bit conflicted because I would like to believe in true world destinations but I want them to be in the material. No, let me rephrase I want something to hold on to; proof, something substantial and made of matter but I also realize its an impossibility especially considering the realm of time. "Psyche" from "Psychology" according to Carl Jung meant "Soul" or "Spirit" and it comprised of three elements the conscious, personal unconscious and collective unconsciousness. And what about dreams? Again quoting Carl Jung; "Dreams are impartial, spontaneous products of the unconscious psyche, outside the control of the will. They are pure nature; they show us the unvarnished, natural truth and are therefore fitted, as nothing else is, to give us back an attitude that accords with our basic human nature when our consciousness has strayed too far from its foundations and run into an impasse." Is all that material? No, its not. So what makes me think I can retain evidence from true world destinations in the material? Foolish!

Metaphysics anyone? Maybe not. I think the metaphysical world is a world that is fabricated solely from psychological needs. A utopia provides solace. However I also think the apparent world is too limited, I mean we still have stars. Astrology and Science for me has lost all credibility after the fake Apollo Moon landings. However, if someone came up with substantial evidence I would be willing to listen.

I just don't want to be limited and I know I am being foolish based on time but still. I was thinking about my Cherry Wine today. I derive "Cherry Wine" from the Nas song featuring Amy Winehouse and they both detail their perfect lovers. And its almost like a mirror effect because they want partners that are just like them. The message is effective considering their past relationship woes. I think its beautiful because they were both repressed. I think about the Gatsby "Greenlight" analogy too and how he was trapped in his own mind. I don't want that but its tough because beauty is generally the seducer of men so I am not faulting Gatsby. I love Jay Gatsby; he is a creative, he is bold, he makes things happen, he is driven and believes in himself. In just a few years he created great things. Daisy is the one that I despise, he didn't deserve Gatsby. But then again, Daisy didn't know much; the seduction process had its pangs in too deep for both of them compounded by time, its a difficult position to be in.    

Regardless I learned, I think that's always important. I want someone who will look at the stars with wonder. A free spirit who will have the audacity to dream impossible things. A creative who will improvise and take charge when the Domino effect is in force. Someone who won't repress my dreams. Someone with adventure in her eyes. Someone with fight in her spirit. A girl with traits of openness like a canvas. Effort and fantastic sex. A great cook too. And just like that I have enlisted what I want. Not as tactful and skillful as Nas and Amy but it's a livestream, it will do. 

Starry, starry nights. 

Don't you dream impossible things?