ANTAKALIPA

These girls These girls, they are everywhere! They all want me. I have become a mere possession, a collectors item. Something devoid of feelings and to hang around proudly, boastfully, like I were a Da Vinci classic. Everyday I am propositioned. Everywhere it’s the same, “we love you”, “Marry me”, “We can’t live without you”! The numbers are overwhelmingly against me because I am the one like Jet Li. My competitors can’t fill the gap. Sometimes I get tired of being the best but what can I do? Greatness defines me and women can smell the aroma. They love me, what can I do? Truth be told they are a reflection of me, sometimes it will get creepy and they’ll stalk me but big deal. It’s fine, a little crazy never hurt anyone. Sometimes I put on disguises, I conceil myself like a mask but the whole situation is a fail because I want it like an addict. They validate everything I am, an unstoppable force! Sexual energy is just a lagging instrument like a moving average, a byproduct...

Fuck Sosa Fuck Sosa,  we do things the right way.  Never fuck anybody who doesn't have it coming. Never hinder a child's progress towards becoming.  Numbing,  the consequences of killing a mother and her offspring.  Fuck Sosa,  I am with Tony.  Can't bare being around niggas who are phony. Niggas who play you like Fifa on Sony,  I'd rather be with Blondie,  with big tits lonely and horny.  Fuck Sosa,  You want war?  Let's go like Lee Sedol,  your bullets can't kill me,  I am Tony Montana,  you are fucking with the best!  Fuck Sosa,  My word and my balls is all I have, Ambition, focus and a burning desire for immortality,  I put that on my name, Loyalty and integrity,  We are not the same.  Fuck Sosa You are going to need pretax soldiers like Gross,  For a boss, Or risk a loss Like a coin toss.

Keep going When you finally make it,  Guilt trips are going to be common,  Like,  "Now that he's got money, he's changed".  Fuck that!  Like that's a bad thing.  You mean you worked so hard to stay the same? They want you to stop,  But why would you stop?  Haters,  Nevermind them they are quitters.  Besides,  Blame it on God.  Let them talk,  that's all they have got,  they can't get to you.  Keep your eyes on the prize.  Keep on dominating.  Maintain the hunger.  Maintain the stamina.  Double the profits.  Create new sources of income.  Serve more people.  Live.  Love.  Dream.  Create.  Greater things are ahead,  Keep going. 

Hard to get I am not playing hard to get I am hard to get I just don't care How you gonna get to me? I don't care about pussy neither, I am a dick Money not a factor I am rich What you gonna tell me?  Stupid Just when you think you have the answers I change the questions You can't get close to me.  I am not playing hard to get I am hard to get

Coitus everyday All she wants is coitus every day. I can’t do it no more. I am not a machine. I have a job, she’s irrational. I can’t be representing all fronts like I am national. The house looks like the aftermath of a tornado, dishes stacked up like a skyscraper. While I am out getting paper, she’s passive like a hater. Lazy as fuck, no pun intended. She’s the type of woman who makes a sloth offended. The sparkle in my eyes gone and my enthusiasm suspended. Just yesterday, she made me a victim of the headboard. Bang, Bang! Dominating me like Serena on the court. Do this, do that, like I am a kid of some sort. She doesn’t even cook and she’s attached to my dick like a hook. She don’t even wear panties anymore. Always exposed like invaluable ore. If her pussy were a stock, it would have plummeted. News just in; Miss Dow Jones loses 90% of her value sending the market into shambles. A gamble, if I am in the house and fully-able. All she wants is coitus every day. I can’t do ...

Bee Gees show  Joburg Theatre, the Bee Gees show, we came in a bit earlier, thought the show was at 7:30 pm. Oh well, being early never hurt anybody, relax, it's chilly, it's cold, let's get some hot chocolate, the show starts at 8:00 pm. We watched people enter, excitement, a turn out, while we were waiting for the show, "Across 110th street" is playing on the speaker, priming people for the experience. It was a fantastic show as expected. Showtime Australia the culprits, fingerprints all over. Incredible performers, they were totally in sync with us, the audience, even gave us 3 bonuses after we demanded for more, but that's expected, how can you stop the show after "Staying Alive" - highly improbable. They also performed "You should be dancing", "Tragedy, "Jive Talking", Nights on Broadway", "Night Fever", "More than a woman", "Spicks and Specks", "Words"...

No favors I don't need no favors from anybody. I don't owe anybody a favor. Everything is lined up for the taking. Take your free lunch with, I am packed. I don't need no handouts. Some of yal are too entitled. Relax, you ain't help with shit. I don't waste my time with niggas, I just set my price and live my life. If you serious we can talk business just don't waste my time. Some of yal are good with the dice, you take chances. Know your story chief, I am not doing a job with accident murders. Quitting on the mission is not an option neither, this is death ground strategy, stay strapped. Don't surrender alive, that's the way of the warrior!  I don't need no favors, let's collaborate on something that is mutually beneficial. Enough with the naivete, we not children, we are not doing this because we "like" each other. Let's discuss terms, roles and profit share. Let's be professionals, everything else is secondary. I ...

Haters III: New and better haters I need new haters, the ones I have now love me. WTF?! That is not in the contract but I didn’t check the fine print. What am I going to do? I can’t cope without my haters. I need haters, they are my reflection of the world and they help gauge my perceived greatness. They are usually the first people to see my flaws, they help me get better. I am honestly worried. Am I falling off? Don’t I make them insecure anymore? Aren’t they intimidated anymore? What happened to the passive aggressive behavior and narcissistic tendencies? What happened to the smear campaigns? What happened to the constant plotting of my downfall? Whose going to dissuade me from going after my dreams? Whose going to spread rumors and assassinate my character? Is this what it feels like to be on top? I can’t live like this. I need to expose myself to new people and broader horizons, that will help me get more haters. I have been too complacent. My current haters are too we...

Haters II: Quitters Haters are just quitters don’t worry about them. They quit on themselves a long time ago and their self-hatred needs a host. That’s all you are, a projection of the mind. Don’t take it personally or you will be dragged along in their world of hell. They don’t want you to make it because it entails they failed. Quitters, they tend to talk a lot and speculate like a Bitcoin trader. They have no long-term prospects. All they do is claim like an insurance broker. Quitters, these are angry people. Nothing they say is of value or substance. No self-awareness whatsoever. Don’t worry about them, they are harmless. A lot of fear resides in their psyche like a coward. They are toothless. Quitters, they think everything is easy. Like you’ll wake up one day and have the life of your dreams. These people don’t have a “why” and they’ll do everything for anything. They hardly get anywhere in life don’t worry, no one wants to be around an expert complainer. Quitters, th...

Haters I have a lot of haters. I love them, I understand the law of polarity. I know love and hate are two sides of the same coin. I know what lurks in their subconscious minds. I reside in their minds rent free. I haunt their conscious minds and so they have to project their inadequacies. I am empathetic to their insecurities. I understand their insufficiencies. I am the repressed voices in their minds that are audible. I understand their anger with the world. I am the battle they wish to conquer, the hurdle they wish to get over. Hence Amsterdam fishhooked McGloin. I am their shadow manifested. They worship the land I walk on. I bring meaning to their lives, the Joker to their Batman. I am everything they want to be, everything they yearn to be. I am the pinnacle for their achievements. I am like smoke, I linger around and disappear like an illusion. They want to possess me and retain me as their prisoner. They can’t touch me like air. They can’t control me, I am remote l...

We are what we think about From as early as primary school we are taught that life is energy and reality consists of matter. This matter exists in different states namely; solid, gas and liquid. We are taught that this matter is always vibrating. This is correct, however we are not taught that this energy and matter is governed by a paradigm. A paradigm is a level, like how a video game has different levels - level 1 being the easiest and level 9 being the boss for example. I want to extend this example and use a ladder that will serve as a visual aid for your mind. To get to the next level of the game you have to outwit and complete the current level or in the case of the ladder step-up to the next level. When you are in level 1, you battle all the things in that level, that is your current paradigm. When you proceed to level 2, you attract things in that slightly more difficult level, this is now your current paradigm. Fundamentally this is what life is - different levels...

Attitude Attitude is so important because it defines destiny, it is destiny itself. This is because attitude is a mindset, it is your habits, it is your thought patterns - attitude is a state of being. There is no such thing as the future or even the past. These are just words that attempt to explain what is and what is, is the eternal present. We are always living in the NOW - there is only the eternal now! You cannot be successful in the future, you have to be successful now. You need to adopt the right habits now and emulate your heroes now. The Universe will catch up and manifest your actions and thoughts. You are not successful one day, you are successful every day. You show up every day and engage in routines that enable you to be successful. You have to be consistent, consistency is all that counts. You adapt and recreate yourself everyday, anything that isn't growing is dying. To have the right attitude means you constantly go at it. You improve everyday and dis...

My advice for start-ups. My first point is "no handshake, no business". Draft something on paper. Don't be naive, words don't mean anything, human beings are not coherent creatures, they are full of deception, they will lie if it serves their best interests. Create a third entity, contribute terms and shake on it. Without this, the partnership is doomed from the start. Second, don't work for/with/under someone you do not admire and respect. You won't give your best under those circumstances and you won't grow. Don't settle! Collaborate with the best people you can find. Keep in mind that if your partner lies to you once, it will happen again and again. They don't respect you enough to think you warrant the truth. Be careful, they might make deals that lead to your downfall. Work with someone with integrity. Know who you are working with. Third, prioritize serving people and work to perfect that model. When you have perfected that, conce...

How committed are you? (Care) Essentially all that commitment is, is managing your sacrifices. I believe anything is possible provided you manage your sacrifices, everything worthwhile in life has a sacrifice. If for example you want to be the greatest tennis player of all time like Serena Williams, you have to engage in 4 hours or more of deliberate practice everyday. You must do it daily, no excuses, no second chances, just do it! That is your sacrifice to be the greatest. This means no more late night braais with friends. In fact, from now on you have no more friends, only people who will help you reach the pinnacle. You also can't be like everybody else. Being like everyone else will only bring you mediocre results and you are not that anymore - you are a winner! You must be with the best people by your side. People who want the best for you. People who will motivate you to being the best that you can be. That's your sacrifice. Do it, no excuses, no second chanc...

Tell the truth or at least don't lie! We are not linear creatures and our behaviors constantly change depending on the people we meet. We create personas and present them as masks so we can be well perceived and liked. Basically we are all actors and we need to play our roles because if we don't isolation is a big possibility and that's not good because we need others to navigate reality. We are social creatures and this is a evolutionary trait. We also tell these "white lies" everyday like "How you doing?", "I am good thanks". We can't say "Horrible, I hate my life and I want to die" because we learned that, that response will isolate us from people. We want to be well-liked. This is a big psychological urge hence the success of social media. Abraham Maslow explores this on his pyramid of needs. Deception is everywhere in nature, predators hide in the long grass to get to their preys and infants learn to fake a cry to...

Love Yourself What difference can you make in this world plagued by bad morality, injustices and blatant mass conditioning? My answer? Don't stress about things you can't control, leave things to God and the Universe and live your life as best as you can. The biggest things you can do are for yourself, take care of yourself, love yourself unconditionally. You are God's magnificent creation, treat yourself like someone who matters, you are royalty, the sun shines when you smile. Make yourself a priority first, you can't be fixing other people's problems when your house is not in perfect order. Be kind to yourself but also have high standards. Forgive yourself for past mistakes, life goes on, try to do better next time. Radiate with pride and self-worth. Love yourself and guard your thoughts. They are life-energy, they are how you perceive reality. Have good thoughts about yourself and it will have a rippling effect on the outside world. Stay away from ang...

Worldwide sustainable change - LOVE Love is not Imposing your will. Love is not proud, arrogant and selfish. Love is patient, kind, tolerant and emphatic. Love is not limited, Love can be generated as we need it. Love is in abundant supply. Love is seeing someone as God intended. Love has no hierarchies and systems. Love just is. Love is timeless, Love is immortal, eternal.  Love is to help,  Love is to let go,  Love is individuality.  Love heals,  Love purifies the soul.  Love is God,  Love unites. 

Rivers (Bruce Lee’s wisdom) There are a lot of lessons to be learned from rivers. They are neutral, they flow. Rivers stream in one direction. A river is not forceful, it does not impose its will on the fish and other lifeforms in its ecosystem. A river is just nature. It is an expression of the Universe. It is not envious of the ocean for having more depth, other lifeforms and water. It is just content with just being the river. I liken rivers to Zen & Taoism. Taoism teaches the action of non-doing. Taoism teaches the importance of not forcing anything. It teaches to yield and be soft. It teaches how to be at peace with yourself. It teaches self-knowledge, it teaches how to be adaptable. This is important because as human beings, we have the proclivity to control and impose ourselves on things outside of ourselves. This is counterproductive and makes people defensive. The action of wanting to control people makes them contemptuous. It’s better to just flow. It’s better...

Perseverance Perseverance is the ability to go through hell and make it to the other side. Perseverance is to keep going no matter what. It is the skill most necessary for success. This is because to succeed you need to be able to complete tasks. You need to be recurring and consistent. You need to be able to pick your battles and engage in those you are certain to win. Because we are aiming creatures and we are always aiming at what is better, perseverance helps us stay engaged with the goal we are aiming at. Perseverance is the process of the goal, it is what you do presently, it is being itself. Charles Darwin made the term “survival of the fittest” popular and it is exactly what perseverance is because you are always fighting metaphorically to survive in this jungle called earth. Death is always at the corner and Mothernature is always plotting – you persevere everyday, you are lucky to be alive with each day, the present is really a gift. To persevere is to have a long...

To be liked or respected? To be liked in the Era of social media is everything! It is social currency, it opens up doors and you can make a lot of money out of it in the form of being an influencer. It is so big and important that people do whatever to be liked. They post naked pictures, they add fuel to negativity and they spread misinformation - ANYTHING for those likes because they validate you in the digital sphere. People change themselves to be liked, they add filters to their pictures, they do stupid and foolish things for lack of better words. They do anything for attention and to be famous. Being famous means the adoration of your peers, it equates to monetary compensation, sponsorships, exclusive invitations and the opportunity to influence. Social status and likes have become more valuable than Gold. Being respected on the other hand doesn't bring much prestige and acclaim. It is boring, arduous and slow. To get respect you have to earn it, often through your...

The Fall I was at the Market Theatre for the opening of "The Fall". The place was filled to the brim and gushing onto the floor. So much so that the auditorium couldn't accommodate everybody with seats, some people sat on the steps. The venue was exuding radiant energy and it was contagious. Excitement was in the air and everyone was beaming. I also met Bongiwe Potelwa, Yay! Thank you for the invite Bongi.  Set in 2015 at the University of Cape Town, South Africa. This piece of protest theatre explores issues of race, decolonization, social inequality, upbringing, the #rhodesmustfall movement and the #feesmustfall movement. It follows 7 students with different perspectives, backgrounds and ideals, united by one cause bringing down the statue of Cecil Rhodes. The statue is a symbol of colonization and it doesn't reflect the current times and ideals of an African University. Instead it divides and perpetuates racism among the students and the sta...

Mondli Tshabalala My first day in a new school Grade 7 Edleen Primary, I met this other kid who was also new. His name Mondli, we seemed to get along quite good. We were paired in the same class and we formed a friendship. Mondli was a great guy, genuine guy, he was into hip-hop and he could Krump! That was so HUGE back then! Although new, his Krumping made him popular in the school. Plus he was from Tembisa so he was relatively known. No one fucked with Mondli because he won't hesitate to fuck you up! Trust me, he wasn't no bitch. He was a new kid but only on paper, everybody knew who he was. My ties were all new. I was in uncharted territory, one could even say a foreigner. Me and Mondli became good friends. I liked him, he was always so good to me and he was talented. He was my link to how the kids in a new territory operated. I learned early on that I shouldn't be timid or these new kids would take advantage of me. People needed to know that I wasn't no ...

Pieces of me I was at the Market Theatre for the opening of "Pieces of me" by Bo Petersen. A poignant play about family, belonging, race and identity. Set in the era of apartheid, the story world is plagued by inequality, segregation and racism. A time of the bompass, when you had to carry your identification documents at all times to gain access to parts of the country. This law severely limited the movements of black South Africans and was viciously enforced by the police with violence and jail time being the norm for perpetrators who didn't have their identification documents at hand. A time of Prohibition of mixed marriages act, an act that made it illegal for a white person to marry any other race, the immortality act, an act that barred sexual relations between whites and non-whites, transgressors could face up to 7 years in prison and the infamous Group Areas act that designated certain areas for certain races among other stringent, harsh and unfair act...

INGRID 'N VLAM IN DIE SNEEU We attended the premiere of this beautiful adaptation of a tragic South African love story last night. A musical and poetic story revealed by the published collection of letters in Vlam in die Sneeu: Die liefdesbriewe tussen Jonker en Brink, love letters exchanged between Ingrid Jonker and Andre Brink and spanning the length of their relationship between 21 April 1963 and 27 April 1965.  It was a passionate and volatile relationship and they loved each other fiercely. 3 months after writing her last letter to Andre, Ingrid committed suicide by walking into the freezing Atlantic Ocean in Three Anchor Bay and drowning. I loved this production - a glimpse into the lives and love of two beloved South Africans. Lizelle Pike is beautiful as Ingrid. Ethereal, broken, fragile, giddy with happiness at times and deeply sad at others, overwhelmed by the love she feels for her daughter, Simone, lost, lonely, abandoned, deliriously in love, an...

Commitment How can we define the word commit? I would say to give entirely to a specific person, situation or cause. The key word here is entirely. It must be wholesome and dedicated, it must come deep from the substructure of your being. It must be natural. It cannot be forced or imposed. To give, give without expecting anything in return. You cannot commit with a heavy heart. A heavy heart is troubled and has a lot to go through. It won't commit, it has excuses and the end results are often disappointing. Someone is committed to something because they are enthused and forsee great results, the payoff has to be appetizing enough. It must be valuable and meaningful. Commitment is something personal and subjective. It comes from within. It is serious, it is existential. How committed am I is a translation of how serious am I about life. Am I moving with the herd or am I doing the things that I want? Am I resentful of life? Am I doing everything that I can? Life is diffic...

Original Cheese.  I've been making this cheddar,  I am the original Cheese.  Niggas think they have the edge. Lol nah,  You seeing optical illusions  Reality is spiraling out of control.  Which bitch you smash?  You mean her?  Man everyone's had a chance,  Aim higher!  We see all your insecurities,  we know the truth.  Masquerading in falsehoods  don't make it the truth.  You better than who?  Haha!  Funnyguy.  Shhhhhh!  Refrain from showing people Your stupidity.  You niggas ain't real,  Yal need to stop pretending. I am tired of yal.  I've been making this cheddar,  I am the original Cheese. 

Forex made me wiser. After quitting the call center I had R30000 from my savings, I also had other deals beside my call center job hence the large amount and they paid off at the right time. Hence me quitting without hesitations, it was time. I was reading a lot on Investing and stocks. I remember I was so fascinated with those graphs, those candle sticks, what they meant, how to read them. They provided a promise of wealth and abundance. I wanted to understand them thoroughly, their psychology and nature. I was intrigued by what caused highs and lows. Martin Scorsese had just released “The Wolf of Wall Street” and it was a classic, I loved it! I even bought the book by Jordon Belfort. Those graphs gave me the promise of becoming Jordon Belfort and I wanted it all, the greed, drugs, big money, white Ferrari, hot blonde, the great Estate, bad morality and sex. I read a lot on technical analysis and enrolled in a couple of courses. I tried out Forex, I decided that I’d do thi...

Sharing a joint There’s nothing better than sharing a joint. It’s a unique experience. Participants involved in the partaking of the activity are complicit and committed. We smoke for the whole journey. When you are smoking a joint with someone you are enjoying the process and the end result. We know what we are doing, we want to get high, just to relax or have a good time. It’s a very good thing, plus it won’t kill you, unlike cigarettes, it kills off cancer. Regardless, there are many ways to die. Put in some viga or dry gin, it absolutely makes no difference to me. Remember “Life’s a bitch” on Nas’ Illmatic album, lauded by everyone as the greatest hip-hop album of all time! “Life’s a bitch, and then you die, that’s why we get high, because you never when you gonna go, Life’s a bitch and then you die, that’s why we puff lye” and then that horn at the end, it is such a beautiful song. It has a Scorsese, Godfather, Scarface feel to it. When you choose to get high, you want...

Rocket science  This is not rocket science What you put in,  Is what you get out.  Show love and receive love.  Show hate  and you not getting my attention.  I am not sinking down to your level.  Godspeed,  but remember,  you can't twist the fabric of reality.  It's not personal,  Straight to the mailbox.  You are not worth my energy. No excuses and sob stories.  Life is difficult for everyone,  control yourself. This is not rocket science, Show love to receive love. 

Kalushi, my brother  I would do anything for Kalushi, he is my blood brother. There's so much to say, the things we saw and experienced together many people would ascribe to as fiction. Frankly I have a tough time believing our experiences. Just maybe it is fiction or just a dream. Still we had a lot of fun, I wouldn't trade the experiences for anything. Obviously I can't cover everything but I'll provide a highlight reel. The story starts with feminine energy, I was in Grade 9 and I saw this girl who blew me away. She was in Grade 8, yellow-bone, pretty and perfect tits. Her name Mapule, she was top quality. But I just admired from a distance. My life was in shambles and I was depressed and sad. My parents got a divorce and they played me like a chess piece. It wasn't fair, I was objectified like a piece of meat. They were like kids, they couldn't handle their problems like adults. How can you use your kid for nefarious ends? I didn't allow it t...

Masculine woman (man repellent) I don’t need a masculine woman. Life is already difficult enough, nah, it’s not worth it. You know, the type of woman who be saying “Feminism this, feminism that, patriarchy this, patriarchy that, 50/50 that, 50/50 this”. Fuck that shit, there’s no such thing as 50/50! We can work together but be my partner and not my boss. If you think you can do it alone then do it! You asking me out on a date? Hahaha, crazy bitch. What’s next? You gonna open the door for me? You modern women are crazy. Relax I am the man, let me do what I need to do. I will provide. I don’t need a masculine woman hiding under the guise of being ambitious and independent. Wear your blazers and pants out there, in here I expect floral dresses and skirts. How can two pants preside over a household? Go be CEO over there! I don’t need a masculine woman dominating me like a sex slave. “Do it like this, don’t do that”, No! I am not doing anything, you won’t be emasculating me. Do...

Toy Story recollection Man, I will never forget how Toy Story 3 made me feel, that is a classic movie, the score and musical arrangements were spot on, the animation guys, angles, cameras, shading departments, voice artists, writers, developers and everyone involved, well done for the magnificent job. Yea, “Toy Story 3” felt like it. Good job guys we had three outstanding installments, curtain call but not the guys at Pixar, they went for a 4th one and promised future installments with an epic finale! Yea, change is good. Woody just isn’t that toy anymore. I loved the 4th one, I was never disappointed, not once, I was constantly doing something, laughing, listening, being engaged with the program that I even cried, that Gaby Gaby act is deep, Gaby Gaby is not like Lotso or Stingy Pete, she just wants it to happen, she wants to be a toy that can be loved and played with like Woody once. Woody is a good guy and finally relents his voicebox to Gaby Gaby, his had his chance, bl...

Life and times of Micheal K Just when you think you have seen it all, something you haven't seen comes along and blows you away.  I was at the Market Theatre to watch "The Life and Times of Micheal K", a novel by JM Coetzee adopted by Lara Foot. The story is told through puppetry and physical theatre. The story is of a man named Michael K, who along with his very sick mother make an arduous journey from Cape Town to her mother's rural birthplace in Prince Albert amid a fictitious civil war during the apartheid era. To get there Michael K builds a shoddy rickshaw to carry her mother. Along the way they head into some trouble, they don't have the right paperwork and permits and the little money they have gets confiscated by soldiers. His mother ends-up in the hospital and passes on. She is cremated. Alone, dejected, hungry and with nothing Micheal K carries on the journey to Prince Albert to scatter her dead mother's ashes. Along the way,...