No longer fighting

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No longer fighting

When we no longer fighting, woah that's bad. It sends out the message that none of this is worth it anymore. It is to resign. It's whatever. Like "I don't wanna do this anymore, do what you want, whatever makes you sleep at night, it's your life". When we no longer fighting, we are final like death, we are no longer emotionally invested, we just don't care anymore. To no longer fight is to accept defeat and all its conditions, to not have the will to carry on. It is to have all your enthusiasm suspended. It is to reserve your energy and voice, to be mute like a mime and cease to do anything like a statue. When we no longer fighting, woah that's bad. Do something, hit me, curse me, cry, plot my murder, do something, anything! Don't turn your back on me. Don't walk away from me. Maybe I've taken you for granted, maybe your presence has spoiled me, maybe I am entitled but I love you, please don't go, I need you in my life. Say something, sell me dreams, tell me another lie. The silent treatment is the worst kind of torture. It makes you doubt yourself and your worth. It makes you paranoid, it unmasks your insecurities, it sheds a light on childhood repressions. The silent treatment can make you go crazy! Let's fight, get dressed in our ninja outfits and duel with our samari swords till dawn. You can verbally abuse me and unpack old baggage. Morality is out of the picture, you can fight dirty and collaborate with Hitler and Putin. You can rake eyes and deliver lowblows. Let's fight, all is fair and whatever happens, happens. Let's clear the air and prepare life insurance documents, just in case. Stonewalling each other is not healthy, I'd rather have a broken heart and shattered reality. Fighting is good, it leads to something, it's progress, something we can build on. When we no longer fighting, woah that's bad. 

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