Never stopped loving you

Never stopped loving you

I never did stop loving you, even throughout the long years, I thought about you constantly. I did my best to stay in touch. But you were playing games, corresponding with my friend in attempts to make me jealous. Sometimes it did work but it was in the minority. He was never in my league so I never felt threatened, but I did question you and whether or not you were worth it. I invested so much of myself in the idea of you that I never wanted to lose you. I thought I had it all figured out, that we'd someday be together, but I was wrong. Despite you being the inspiration of everything I did, I still lost you. To this day I still don't understand why life didn't give us a chance. I regret nothing, I stand by everything I did in the past. I am the accumulation of my past efforts and I am proud of the man I've have become. But I keep wondering what if? We were vibing, we were on the same wavelength. I loved you and I know you felt the same way. Is there something we should have done differently? Were we deluded in our love? I am guilty for being distant and not being affectionate so maybe it's me, I should have sent you text messages that warmed your heart and showed you I cared but then again, I didn't want to manipulate you, you'd pick it up, all this love-bombing stuff, I wouldn't be able to sustain it. I prefer to be with you in the flesh and gaze in your eyes, shower you with compliments and tell you that I love you. Unfortunately distance got in between us and that barrier couldn't be overcome. Our union was doomed from the start. We just could not get it together. I can't help but to think that you are the one that got away and I am rueful ruminating about potential realities. You are mine in a perfect world, I'll never stop loving you.