I am not him

I am not him

I am not him, 

it's wrong that you compare me to him. 

It's not fair, 

you claim you over him 

yet you connected like an active sim. 

I won't do it, 

I just won't do it, 

I'd much rather let you walk away. 

It's going to tear me apart 

but I won't let you lead me astray. 

I am not him, 

you have history and he taught you everything you know. 

Your love was pure and as white as snow. 

I could never taint the canvas you created with my dirty brush. 

You were his girl and you were my crush. 

Every time we locked eyes, 

I just blushed, 

emotions spiked, 

time moved faster 

and I felt I was rushed. 

I could never give you what he did, 

I'd be flushed. 

I am not him, 

he was your first serious boyfriend 

while I was just a boy-friend. 

What he did with you fills the deep end, 

while I am busking in the sun and walking on land. 

We two different people and a compromise is quicksand. 

I won't do it, 

his shoes are too big to fill. 

You were a virgin before him 

and he taught you how to feel. 

I am not having it like a promiscuous girl on the pill 

cause, 

you still rave about him like his paying the bill. 

Nope, 

I am not him, 

you're not ready to move on. 

You holding up progress and your tears are a turn off. 

I am not him, 

it's wrong that you compare me to him. 

Your constant on and off

Makes my heart go dim.