Alcohol scars

Alcohol scars 

Alcohol scars, they surround my body like an island, I am doomed, I am trapped, I don't know where I landed. I don't know how I got the scars, it's a blur, all I remember is last night's slur and today I am sipping blood from my skin like a slurp. Scarface like Montana, they curl my body like bananas and I slip. Dozing off intoxicated, I trip. Falling like a missile like a punchline on a script. The scars aren't hard to decrypt but why didn't I feel pain, numb like anesthesia but what happened to the brain? I think I am going insane. When did this happen and this, suffering from memory loss that wipes off your first kiss. It's never bliss cause the scars heal like a blitz leaving me confused like a kid in a quiz. Alcohol scars, I don't remember what happened. I was happy on the day, that's one thing that happened. Claims of pregnancy but did I really do that? Cause you ugly as fuck and I doubt I'd hit that. Alcohol, alcohol I am leaving you! You convince me that she's cute and you never accept what's due. Your suggestions leave me in sticky situations like glue, have me contemplating about suicide out of the blue. I am done, we through, even if you were a bolt, I wouldn't screw. If I were a lawyer I'd sue, cause your claims are slanderous, outcomes deadly and dangerous. Alcohol you trick me and make me feel invincible, when the truth is lonely and sadly invisible. My fights are never sensible, offside to elude the goal and tomorrow the pain burns like a coal. Alcohol scars, I wish I was prepared cause then I'd have Plan B to show you that I cared. But you'd have to take it in front of me, just to be sure and let life be. No unintended seeds, they grow, lead lives filled with anger and cold like snow. All because I couldn't say no, because I chose to elope, changing addresses to avoid envelopes. I don't remember what happened and these scars are not mine, I was out of my mind, a product of wine. I didn't do it, I went to bed at nine, even though the pain hurts and it's not benign.