Sitting with my thoughts

Sitting with my thoughts 

I met a lot of amazing people this year, they are in my paradigm, I am also amazing, great sees great. Winning has become automatic, it's expected, it's easy, I just show-up. My biggest advice is to just invest in yourself. It yields wonderful returns. It took a while but I am finally turning a profit. Compound interest and time will reveal what I have always known, I am the greatest of all time. But I can't be complacent, there's a lot to improve on, results are not good enough, I am not where I want to be, I am far behind, I need to keep showing up. I must work harder, stay consistent, find a way to serve more people, automate my process, empower creatives. Satisfactory progress but I could do a lot more better. The focus is intense, attention specialized, care hands-on and the hunger keeping me awake. With consistency and care, I'll get there, I will serve millions of people around the world. I need a great team of talented people to aid me in my quest, I need resources, I need infrastructure. I am just glad I didn't give up on myself. It was difficult but I can say I made it. I can't complain, I'm surrounded by great people. I don't have regrets, I did everything I wanted, I am happy with myself. The voices in my head are barely audible and even when the volume pitch increases it's not something I can do anything about. It's something that only patience, luck or divine intervention can fix and I am cool with that because I understand nothing about the structure of reality. The universe is obsurd. I can only live in the present and enjoy the moment, to do what I can with the time that I have and in that regard, I am the best in every moment. I am the best in everything I do, that's my state of being. I aspire to only deliver the best. That's the best I can do. I never betrayed the little boy in my soul, instead I made him stronger, I never tried to appease anybody, it was always about me and my growth, I can live with myself, I am confident in my abilities, I am proud of myself. I don't want excuses, I don't want a baby to be my biggest achievement, there's over 7 billion people in the world, God forbid but even if I don't have one, I can live with that. Something more burns in my soul, it seeks expression, it yearns for a platform. I don't know maybe it's heroism, the fear of death tends to do that to a person. Even so, It's only a matter of time before I win on a macro level, winning on a micro level is already automatic and unconscious.