I choose antakalipa

I choose antakalipa

I know aligning and associating with me is difficult. I represent everything repressed and unconscious. I am vulgar, explicit and at times offensive. My words have a lot of salt and can cut deep. It's my sense of humor, it's all wrong and I put bad guys on a pedestal. I understand why the industry recoils, I understand why anybody would  recoil. I challenge and dare you to look! I represent humanity's darkside and repressions. Let's be real, if I had a prominent seat I'd probably get cancelled. Oh yes, I am the cancelled type. Regardless, it's my perspective and these are the stories I want to tell. I don't want to be cool, I don't want to be anyone's role model, I just want to be. For me being the consciousness of culture entails telling stories in my own voice even if it makes people uncomfortable, angry or otherwise. So I am at a crossroads, try to appease the industry and hope they will accept me despite the fact that I am a long shot or carry on being the controversial, undesirable "antakalipa". I really like "antakalipa". I am going to choose "antakalipa" - consciously. It's okay, the industry can turn their backs on me, I understand. Maybe I won't be rich, maybe I won't collaborate with industry greats, maybe I won't get the resources, maybe I will be shunned, maybe I won't amount to much, but I will tell my stories, I will share my perspective. I choose me and my controversial take. I choose antakalipa. I am already a long shot, I am already an underdog, I came this far, I have to carry on, I bet on myself despite everything, even if it prolongs the journey, even if I don't succeed, I choose antakalipa. Love me or leave me alone, I am not changing for anybody. Don't do me any favors, you can leave if you want to. I choose antakalipa.